yesterday, i was at lunch, eating my usual lunch....fish noodles...no oil...no lard.....simple and healthy.

as it was lunch time, many tables were not cleared while the cleaners were still busy clearing other tables, taking away the dishes to make way for others.

opposite to me was this young man, he had just order his food, but the tables was still not cleared.he sat down and make enough room for his food.

along came a elderly man...looking around..... then he sat down opposite the young man, picked up the chopsticks and began eating wat was left over by others. there were a lot of left over (i can see it from where i was sitting).

my heart stop, suddendly i feel a great sense of sadness, i cannot swallow my food... i felt very sad for the elderly man, then, a lot of thoughts came into my mind.

i am not a crusader, i am not a hypocrite and i am not defining myself as a great man...a saviour or anything..... so here goes....

first, singapore is the MOST digitally link country in the world...so say mr scot mcnealy (sun microsystem), imagine, we are suppose to be a first world country, modern, advance, whatever you want to call it, yet here we are, this old man dont even have enough to eat. are we really 'linked'. we are actually very divided, 'un-link'! the haves and the have not...and also those in between - struggling. we forgot about our fellow man.

second, why the hell did someone order so much food knowing that they cannot finish it? there are millions of people in this world that don't have enought to eat, and here we are, wasting them. where is the brains? do they have any concious at all..... we have a lot to learn.

third and i think was what hit me the most. one day, i may end up like him. we all may end up like him. i dont think it is by choice, really. what if i loose my ability to work, who will look after me when i am all alone in this world? at that moment, i see myself walking....sitting down on the table and eating what was left over.

it sends a shiver down my spine.

i feel sadness...even today and now. i keep thinking of this elderly man...walking up and down the hawker centre looking for scraps of food left over by selfish people who think that they have the right to throw away what they cannot eat after ordering it. have they thought about the people producing the food, the time, money and energy put into it. have they thought about the poor people in many parts of the world.

i wish i had done more. buy him lunch! but i did not do it. i feel so ashame now.

i never like nike, but for a moment i should have 'just do it'.

i remember a verse in the bible, jesus said, "....hungry and you feed me..... and if you do it to the least of my brothers, you did it for me." great verse. excellent example of what we often have read, but never practised it.

i dont want to give any excuses, but yesterday, i let jesus down, i have neglected him and i have fail him. how can i evanglised? how can i be an example of God?

god bless all those people out there.