death.

is death so scary? i guess all of us will never know until the time comes. i have never seen a person dying, or should i say i have not seen a person at his/her dying moment. so i don't know the struggle of the dying person, or if he/she is at peace to let it all go....

what will it be like when my turn comes? will i struggle or will be at peace?

as i say my prayers at the wake of the lady, i look at the coffin and i began to wonder....

sometimes as i stand there to say my prayer for the dead, i am just so afraid to die. maybe its the material things that i am afraid to loose. i wonder why am i so afraid to die. it is not good? cos i will be going home to see God...or was it that i am guilty of something, and that if i go, instead of going home, i go to hell and meet satan and get punished!

yesterday, when i was at the wake saying my prayers, i was completely at peace. i was not afraid. i felt calm, and i did not have that fear in me. i was actually thinking of myself lying in the coffin...... then all these people surrounding me, saying prayers for me, so that god will forgive me and bring me home......

i can't say why, but one thing is for sure , we should take every opportunity when it comes, don't regret, be nice to people. when you are good, you will be at peace, otherwise...hell break loose!

peace in death

another useless thought