this is sad news.... as if someone have died...and gone for good...never to return

it was strangely very cold yesterday......

it was deathly quite too...

you can almost hear the echo of your own breathe... as if you know something bad is going to happen and everything become quite and you hear nothing until it strikes you hard!

i was dresses in all black.....not of any intention...but i guess it reflected my mood for the day. the few of us just put up a brave front......

tears well in my heart... maybe i did cry... but not out loud... i can almost feel the tears in my eye...tears flowing away from the side..... and the saddness gripped me by the heart with pain....

then it struck 1800hrs...... saddness overcame me..... suddenly, it dawn upon on me that this is now exactly the last moment for me in the acengy..... we are now officially close. i was to pack up all my remaining stuff.....and go.....

i am the last of all the staff the leave the office..... holding the fort..... for all last minute jobs.

i am sad.....cos it was me that started the agency with the agency with them...i saw her birth... her struggle......her success...... and now....thought not a failure, but sad to say, under difficult circumstances...her closure.

it also echos the sight of the time when we just started...just the few of us...... the office was empty then....it was cold... we were just starting out... we work very hard trying to established ourselves ffrom the many many agencies then....

whats done is done.... have to let it go... but it was a mixed feeling.... i remember the happy times i had there....all the struggles and what we have achieved till now.

i must admit its not a great agency, but the environment suits me and there is almost no politics in the agency at all. its like a family....almost... well its a family business..... people i worked with are nice people..... maybe its just sentimental.....

at 6pm i started cleaning and packing up.

630pm, we had a photo session....taking pictures of the office as a remembrance.

at 655pm, i had my last pee in the agency toilet....flush...... another chapter closed.

at 7pm...i drove off for the last time as a staff from the agency carpark.....

bye!

i guess its the end of another chapter in my life story... today, another new chapter begins.... the page is still a blank now...cos i woke up at 930am....(first time in many many years)... and then i am typing away here at this blog...... penning my feelings. i think i better go brush my teeth now.... its a new day for me

another uesless thoughts.