to serve with love and to have compassion is so so so so damm hard.

i came out of a meeting in church last nite a very very very angry man. i blew my top. i cant stand the people and i cant stand the presiding preist who chair the meeting.

this is sin to the power of infinity...to be angry with the priest.......

i think i have to really sit down and think about my role and the things i do in church. i think its sucking away all my energy and my forcus in God.

they BIG question here is: am i truely serving God for His Glory?... i think i am...cos i want things to be done right for Him.

i am so upset with myself. i feel that i am slowly but surely drifting away for God...... maybe the behaviour of the people i see in church is upsetting me and i loose my focus.

maybe i demaned 100% from everyone in the committee....i expect everyone to perform like in the commercial world. i expect people to come in on time for meetings. i expect people to follow certain instructions. i expect people to listen. maybe i just expect too much.......

so this is what many people have told me...... i expect too much.....

worst of all, i dont see whats wrong with giving your best and 100% to God?

another useless thought