i can't make my self laugh anymore. i think i hardly laugh at all for the past 5 months. i am all tensed up and stressed out.

i am staring at the computer screen and my mind is as white as snow white...

even stephen chow movies makes me angry!

its getting harder by the day. maybe i am just unhappy working at this new place. everyday its just work home....work home....work home.....work home......

creatively, i am brain dead. the creative atmosphere is about about zero percent. the so called 'designers' are helpful in the region of zero percent. the management here is also efficient to the percentage of about zero percent...

so you see.... the overall zero percentage is not a good number...so it means its not good place to work in. its stifling.

maybe i need a vacation. take a break to smell the flowers. feel the grass in the forest. work prevented me from taking a vacation in the beginning of the year.

i am not sure if ah gold and ah black understands me...but i think they do. they don't come up to me when i walk near the tank. maybe they know i am not happy, so they dare not swim up when i go near to feed them. they only come up when i walk away.....

i think my face show anger and frustration .....

am i complaining...... i guess i am....

another thoughtless useless thought