its been a long time since i write anything on this blog.

life has been extremely busy for me...... and many many unhappy things have happened.
i think my life is sort of upside down now. work stress already killing. in july alone, i have been working non stop.... working pass midnite almost daily..... work is just never done..

then there is one colleague who is just a damm "BI***H"...... words alone cannot describe her work attitude and to think that she is 'somebody' in the office... but the management seems to be tolerating her..... well..... i have a choice..... should i stay or should i go??

in spite of all the unhappiness.... God have been very gracious. his presence in my life helps. knowing that HE is watching over me and my family is comforting. although many think its all bull shit about God and religion.... i think otherwise. i find my peace when i pray to help and ask him to walk with me in such time... when i feel so alone, so isolated, so unhappy and so without peace.... now even more so, i think God plays a very important role in my life..... it makes me stronger to face whatever comes my way....

i start my day thanking God for all that is given to me and thank him just to be alive. and then i ask him to guide me throughout the day. let the holy spirit guide me in my work.... my thoughts and take control of my life. and then of course for my family.

there is still a burden in me now. i may look happy and relax, but this heavy heart is still holding onto something... that i cannot let go. i am not sure what is it..... this burden in me.

i am seriously thinking of quitting my job and look for another job of a different industry totally.....

maybe i can be a cabby..... or a train driver..... something that is like after work... that's it, tomorrow is a new day, the work don't carry forward. it ends when you shift ends. no doubt pay is lesser... but i don't really want to work because of money...

life goes on.....

another useless thought