"it won't happen to me"

that's what we all take for granted. it will NEVER happened to me.
I fall into this trap even though i constantly remind myself that anything can happen.

you know when you read of news of air plane crashes.... or bus accidents... you would surely always goes.... 'nah...this will not happen to me...these people who died are just unlucky.'

cancer.....

i thought will not happen to me... its other people's illness....
"WRONG"

i am now just hours away from finding out if I have some form of cancer. its really unbearable.
i know in my mind that whatever happens...it is all in God's time and i just have to have faith in Him.

maybe my time is up.... maybe not...

maybe i am the instrument of something in His plan... i don't know.

i leave it in the hands of God now. I just have to be a little strong. everything is already done, i cannot do anymore.

sad beagle.