ash wednesday this year was sort of different... i not only went alone, but also to a different church where i know no one there.... so it gives me some time to reflect and i sat on the pew. i sat there watcing people come into the church, some praying, some talking....so late.... everyone have a different attitude when they walk into the church.

who is God to them.... who is God to me! i ask myself about penance this lent.... about my christian life and God and me. so i have decided long ago that i will be a vegetarian for the next 40 days... and i began to ask myelf... vegetatian.... so?

there are knots and bumps in my life that needs to be sorted out. family issues unresolved.
i love my family, but some issues are just there and need to be sorted out. I have being praying for everyone in the family, for love, peace and forgiveness.

i am who i am.. i dont think i have changed in anyway. i like to live my life quietly and peacefully.
 perhaps lent is a good way for me to think of some of these issues and see where God will lead me. i need to discern and listen to God amidst this busy life of ours. i pray for strength and a loving and forgiving heart.

maybe lent will pass with no answer and nothing achieved. but lent is only 40 days. God is forever. i will lean on Him and let him guide me... it will be 40 days after 40 days after 40 days..... and everything is in God's time.

have a blessed lentern season and may God bless everyone. keep the faith.