jazzybeagle useless thoughts

2012-01-04T01:01:00.004+08:00

I have been struggling a long time. My mind is really messed up. I honestly do not think i did anything wrong, but neither am i sure that i am right!

Hmm..... Well i guess i have to live with some of my decisions. Right or wrong i should stand by what i believe and not be swayed by others.

No regrets! Life is really too short for regrets.

Another useless thoughts.

2012-01-04T00:57:00.002+08:00

I should be brave and just walk away and do what i want to do and be happy. Life is too short to regret later.... My time can be shorter than what i think it might be.

Actually no one knows, if He comes a calling.... everything will be too late.

Another useless thought.

2011-02-22T09:12:00.002+08:00

and so uncle james is gone....
all in the space of a week....

how fragile is life..... when God cometh.... nothing can stop Him from taking
rest in peace and may enternal life and joy be upon all who have return home... to the Lord.

my time will come... it could be soon.... it all in God's time
and as we wait, we get ourselves ready for His coming for we all know not when, where or how

another useless thought.

2011-02-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

i went to visit a church friend yesterday in the hospice...

i must say i am shock to see the state he was in... no doubt he is already over 70 years of age.
i am shock because just a few weeks ago i saw him in church he was still walking and talking to me and the wife.

although earlier i notice he has lost a lot of weight. and the a week after, he was very yellowish...
i thought he must have liver problem or something... and it could be a fast death....

i told the wife...and she suddenly notice..and she went to ask him if he was ok....

although he lost a lot of weight, he told us the doctor could not find anything wrong with him....

we went to visit him yesterday.... a priest told me he is in the hospice!!
now, he is in the hospice... it only means death... he look so frail....

my tears almost flow....i feel the pain.... my wife told me he asked about me when she visited him sometime ago... so i felt i must go pay him a visit...and fast.....

although he was weak and could not say a word... he seem to know that we have come to see him.... i was very sad..... i must admit, he is a little annoying... but maybe because he is an old man.... its just the action.. i could be like that when and IF i reach his age....

i held his hand and called him..... we pray over him and then left.... with a heavy heart. we did not stay long as we wanted him to rest as he must be tired with so many visitors....

as we leave the room.... he wave good bye....

i thought....wow... he mustered all his strength to wave.....
its a matter of time now.....

be strong uncle james..... you are going home to the lord.....

another useless... sad thought

2011-02-14T21:01:00.002+08:00

life alone in japan for 12 hours...

life without the wife with me in narita is kind of scary....

and here is my story....

i followed the wife to work on the second day of the lunar new year.. yap..i am starting AND keeping with my own tradition of NOT staying at home during the most boring festive season.....

such irony...i said festive and YET its so boring..... there is really nothing to do except to eat and sleep at the place we visit.....sigh..... at least when i was younger and not married i look forward to taking red packet from the elders... but now.... i give...and give...and give.....

anyways....

the wife left me in japan and when to work. to be exact she left me for 12 hours in a foreign land that speaks NO english....

but i must say its an adventure for me.... after doing so church work in the hotel... i left for the town at 130pm.... and in the bus many thoughts came into my mind....

the dream that i had the night before.... we had a big fight and we decided to divorced each other as we cannot stand each other face anymore..... this was IT!!!....

As i walk alone in the cold i kept thinking of the dream... WHY do we even think of divorcing?... now i feel so lonely and helpless... this is surely the feeling if we are to part and go our separate ways... and for what? i can't remember the fight we had in the dream.. i fact i can hardly remember the fight we have in real life... its seems so trivial.

it is really sad to see couple divorced be it trivial or grave.... things can be worked out IF we all try. Maybe its time we truly treasure what we have n0w when we are all still alive. why fight?. In fact, God made marriage so sacred that He made it a sacrament, holy and pure. He said "what God unite, man cannot divide". when death comes a knocking...it is all but too late.

then i went to aeon supermarket and got myself and the wife some food for dinner and strawberry mochi for a colleague to is head over heels over it. i got 10 of it..... but i only gave her 7...cos i gave 3 away .....oops.....

my time alone in a foreign land is near the end... i am now in the bus on the way back to the hotel...the wife is coming back to meet me in the hotel....

its such a relief for me.... to have my guardian angel back by my side.... guarding and guilding me in my life...

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2011-01-06T15:40:00.002+08:00

irony...

you work hard so that you can have a purposeful and meaningful life. So you study hard so that you can make good money to lead a comfortable life, tour the world, live a life of luxury and eat all the best food you can find... maybe start a family.....

nice picture of life?

the irony is.... when you start to work.. you get totally stressed out.... work is so hectic that you have practically no time for anything except more work and... well... more work....and then you will start to smoke and drink to relief that stress at work and in life....

you may earn big bucks, but all the money will go on to pay all your medical bills... cos you will be get heart problem, weak kidneys, fats around the liver... cancer..... and what not... suddenly.... time will be a stand still for you.....

then you realised money is not everything... life is.... but then its too late.... you will die soon from all your illness.....

so.. i guess its really good to be a bum!! no work no stress.... live a free and easy lifestyle....
to begin with.. you don't even need to study let alone study hard.... no 'O' levels.... 'A' levels.... university..... pHd!!!!!

live life... be a bum!

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2011-01-04T08:20:00.002+08:00

2 months or so ago...we were having dinner with some friends when we met another church friend at a coffee shop.

we were talking and then out of no where we were talking about majong and when we should meet and play a game or two.... since they have been talking about it since the longest time....

then the church friend say that her mother in law likes to play...and maybe we should play with here... no stress kind of majong session...just for fun.....

last sunday..... we went to her mother in law's wake. yes...she is gone.... talk about playing majong with here will never materialized.

moral of the story? well maybe we should just do thing... never delay things we want to accomplish... cos we may never have the chance again.... just like the mother in law.

we may live to regret things in life.

another useless thought.

2011-01-03T10:20:00.008+08:00

i read in the papers that the aide to the PM in our neighbouring country wanted the catholic church to remove all crucifix when the PM visit the church ground...to preserve his Islamic look...

er.... is this about politics or is it religion? is this the mark of a leader of a country?

I will be very very disappointed if the church decided to remove the crucifix just to accommodate the PM.... how can they lower God for a human being? already it is not right for them to say grace before the PM came...why should they? if the PM is not happy he can don't attend the function at all.

this is out right bias, narrow minded, prejudice, chauvinism, bigotry and it goes to show how narrow minded they are in thinking, action and deeds! and may i ask how can they progress as a government... a politician and a leader!

.... maybe the 10% won't be voting for them now..... and they should not!

I am not sure, but i don't think we should wear our faith like a piece clothing. its is not about appearance, slogans and talk! talk is CHEAP. It is in the heart. in our action and in our love for ALL human race. it is about total tolerance about who practice what faith.

I am also shock to read that his aide mentioned something like there are only 10% of christian in the country.... and 90% are Muslim...and the church should not celebrate Christmas like in such a big scale, they should respect the 90%

is that religious tolerance?? is he threatening those who are of different race and religion? to me he is.... he is warning all those who practice a different faith to shut up and don't take their stay in the country for granted...cos they are second class....

mind you, the only reason why Christmas is like a big celebration is not celebrated by the church, BUT by the business man, the money grabber! the people who are out to make huge profit in the name of our great God, Jesus Christ.

i mean what is the PM trying to tell the country when he was always preaching (no punt there) about unity? and One something....

oh well i don't live there.... so let them do what they want. I just hope the church there stand firm and have faith in God.

another useless thought

2011-01-03T08:56:00.003+08:00

the wife: hey, this skirt is nice ya?

me: yap!

sales girl (FT): can i help you?

the wife: do you have medium size?

sales girl: oh, this one we only have xtra small.... but i don't worry, you can wear it, it looks nice on you.

me: WHAT!!

a good sales girl? or a dumb consumer?

well many girls will fall for this trick.. thinking that you can fit into a xtra small size skirt with a medium size body!!

me: lets go! she is nuts!

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2011-01-03T08:39:00.003+08:00

2010 came and went....

2011 is here and its been 3 days! what have i been doing for the past 3 days of 2011?
NOTHING....

what did i do in 2010? NOTHING....

so much for consistency...ahhhaa

but seriously... 2010 have been an eventful year for me. on top of my mind... my near cancer experience. i thought that this was it. my time was here... my work here is done.

fortunately, God still have some stuff for me to do here... so he is sort of letting me off this time.
so here i am, waiting for my next mission, though i am not sure what he has in store for me.

of course there are some unhappy incidents... but then, there are also many many more happy incidents that came my way.... no lah....never stike 4D... oh!!!!.... BUT i did strike TOTO!!! yap.... SGD20!!!! not too bad for me already. its a HUGE windfall!... with that the prize money.... the wife and me went to eat at a hawker centre for lunch! nice.

whats in stall in 2011? i don't know. but for sure we will be shifting to our new home.... if all goes well. I hope it will also be a new beginning and a new life.

on top of my wish list... to consistently go for my jogging...and then do my half marathon and then hopefully a FULL marathon.... without the oxygen mask at the end of course! this is one resolution i wish to keep for 2011. get my health back.

as for my work its been so so.... well work here is very a ify thing..... which i dont know.... kind of unstable here.... some people are unstable! hahahaaa

i will listen to God for his advice. i will walk where he leads me, no question asked.

here's to another fruitful year... and wishing one and all good health... and peace.

another well thought thought.... heh!

2010-12-24T13:18:00.002+08:00

on this night, a saviour has been born to us and save us from sin. His name is emmanual (God is with us).

yap...

bet many of us never knew that. most of us is thinking about the fat guy with a long white bread and dress in red riding with his red nose rain deer!! throwing present and sliding down roof tops! its not about santa claus.... not about shopping for gifts... eating turkey.... or partying and drinking!

.....

heres wishing one and all a blessed christmas and a happy new 2011!
may the good lord continue to bless us in the new year. guide us with his wisdom and his love.

2010-12-23T08:14:00.003+08:00

whatever happen to my country?

suddenly, everything seems to be wrong!... its not like 20 - 30 years ago.....
things seems to go wrong more often than usual...

rising cost of living.... rising cost in public housing.... rising cost in public transport... rising cost on food, products and services..... rising cost electricity and water... work becomes more stressful.... escape of prisoners.... loss of money in investments.... the rich and poor divide....

we do wrong we pay the price.... even the 'pai ka' who escape was the people's fault... and some people get away with it! the miw do wrong... we move on..cos its pointless to dwell in the past!

maybe the world is more open to day than years ago... we are more exposed and more prone to external forces.... in the internet age.... i guess everything is an open book!

well the year is coming to a close.... happy new year one and all.... let just hope for the next in the year to come... vote wisely!

another useless thought.

2010-12-11T13:41:00.002+08:00

wikileaks.... is it wrong?

i am not sure.... can you imagine the stuff the americans discuss about with other politicians!! we will never know if not for this wikileaks! it sure is an embarrassment to them! yes it will damage their relationship with the other countries.... and by the way... i am not even sure they have good relationship with any countries!!

don't blame wikileaks.... its the americans who brought this upon themselves..... all the security they have talked about are all....well....just talks!

i got to go for a wiki to take a leak now... no time to talk about this.....

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2010-12-11T13:33:00.002+08:00

the cancun summit in mexico.....

well its really 'can kun'..... in hokkien, it means can sleep!

ALL the award winning politicians can go sleep and stop wasting resources and time discussing about something that will NOT happen i think WILL NEVER HAPPEN..... because they are all more interested in making money... you think they are serious about climate control? save the environment?

imagine all the tress cut down to make papers for them to print all the useless document! all the fuel and energy they are wasting the cars the travel in... the plane that they come in from.... the lights and air conditioning ...... all the tax payers money...... that can be used for more meaningful purpose like feeding hunger children!...

imagine their carbon foot print! well maybe there can be another summit to stop all these useless summit!

yap...really 'can kun'

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2010-12-11T00:06:00.002+08:00

gambling.... its been around since prostitution came into being... since gambling and prostitution goes hand in hand....

malaysia is up in arm over singapore because their people are coming over to gamble and losing shit loads of money...and neglecting families back home..... i sense that they are putting the blame squarely on singapore and WE are responsible for the shit back in their homeland....

i wonder... why they even allowed genting to be built up in the mountain?.... why did they not BAN it out right!!

now they are saying that its bad..... well its not that bad when they have it on their mountain... BUT when there is another one.... or 2 near their shores..... thats BAD!!!

hypocrites?... i should think so. or maybe its just pure jealousy.... cos we have a bigger and better casino then they have? or is it because sillyporeans are now losing money at home and not on their mountain?

your guess is as good as mine....

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2010-12-10T23:59:00.002+08:00

the thai king is the most revered king in the land.... everyone in the land respected him... he is like god to the people and everyone are suppose to listen to him...

strange but true... it seems that all the politicians there should be thrown into jail for NOT listening to their king's call for peace and unity....

what the politicians have done is divide and sub divide the country..... look at thailand today.... the land of a thousand smiles..... it is becoming yellow...red and pink! i wonder if anymore colors will come in.......

looks like that smile just got wipe out! hardly anyone is smiling now..... i suppose not even the king....

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2010-12-10T23:56:00.002+08:00

the noble peace prize... a supposedly prestigious prize for anyone to get in his or her lifetime.....

such an irony prize too be getting.....

with every prize that is given out... it create more tension and endanger peace in the process.....

china is the latest to be angry with it...

how nice... the noble 'peace' prize

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2010-12-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

100 accidents on the expressways daily.... that's the headline i read the other day...and these excludes accidents on other roads......

there are so many accidents nowadays involving picks and lorries.... that i think is about time the authorities should do something!!

i have driven on the expressway after midnight and this picks and lorries are going at breakneck speed!... at least 120km/h!! and the are zig zagging across expressways and on main roads!

how many times have i cheated death on the roads with these idiots on the roads!! they cut into your lane....swirl in and out of traffic at high speed...

to be fair.... private cars are also culprits!! people who drive high performance car! i am not generalizing them.... but i have encountered quite a few of them on the road! and i just encountered one today while on the road!!

i mean what the hell are these people thinking?

and here we are catching people who drive into bus lanes..... illegal parking..... parking on double yellow lines.... parking at season parking lots..... when out there... these huge vehicles are killing people out there!!

something is very wrong with who comes out from the driving schools! can they really drive? are these new drivers ready for the real world?

WHAT ABOUT CURBING THESE HUGE VEHICLES FROM SPEEDING?? is it really so difficult to limit their speed to 50 or 60km/h?

must some important people get killed before some one will do something to stop this madness???? maybe...maybe not.....

i don't know.... i am just ranting....

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2010-12-01T15:19:00.002+08:00

"kopi si siew dai"

what do the chinese nationals behind the kopi counter know anything about local kopi?
They don't even have coffee in their hotels for breakfast in China!

it taste like "S**T!!" what do they know about local taste?
maybe they should just stick to ban mien..ma lak hou kuo or something from there!

what do these chinese national know about local cha kueh teow... carrot cake..... chicken rice.... chili crab...

these is cheap labor/cost over passion to sell good good and drink! at the end...it is to make more money regardless of taste!

but we being sillyporean...we continue to eat them even if it taste like "S**T!!"
for now we just have to live with it.... and have my "kopi si siew dai" made the chinese way!!

another useless thought

2010-11-26T17:45:00.003+08:00

of late there are shit load of talk about the cripple who escape.....

i am just wondering ... the south Korean minister of defence step down and took full responsibility of what happened when the north fired missiles and he did not react fast enough. in fact there are many many examples of top management and politicians alike taking full responsibility of things that happen.... during their leadership.... why not ours?

lets put it this way... don't be fooled!!.... there will NEVER be short of people who can lead...

how come our miw million dollar leader can get away with it without taking full responsibility? in fact he tell us to be more alert... like its our fault that he escaped!

can you imagine... after his great escape... he could have gotten in contact with the terrorists friends... help him to plot his revenge..... he could have inflicted maximum destruction in our beloved country... killing thousands and inflict heavy losses..... both with the people and on the economy!! and it may not be reversible once the damage is done!

and if that happens...who is responsible? us? our fault... cos we are not alert? then why we vote for them to work for us? wise up people.... you know you have the power when the time comes... especially the 66.6

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2010-11-26T17:38:00.003+08:00

the north koreans sank a south korean sub.... and the a few days ago.... file missles into south korean killing 4 people.

no one did anything.... its all just talk.

politicians a condemning here and there.... try to do the 'right' thing in the eyes of the world!

well... i was thinking..what the hell are the americans doing? shouldn't they launch an all out assault and invade the north like what they did to iraq?

have they finally chicken out? or maybe there are really no real benefits if they launch an all out war! there is no oil.... no nothing if the invade... but in iraq, there are crude oil!

i was was like... "ah...... this is what politics all about" .... selfish benefits! its dirty... and its evil!!

go on.... talk all you want.... the people in north will still suffer... their dear leader will still be like that maybe even more brave than before... one day they will just fire a nuclear missles into the south... and they will still be talking.... telling everyone to be calm....

i thought.... now why didn't they think about calm when it was iraq... afganistan.... vietnam...

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2010-11-26T17:13:00.002+08:00

its been a month since i last blogged!

well, i got a good scare of my life when doctor found a 5cm tumor on my thyroid! he told me it could be cancerous... and i thought... oh no... its time...... my time is up....

i went for the operation even though its not cancerous... and i am now recovering at home. feels funny to lose a part of me which have been with me for so many years! yap..the doctor took out half of my thyroid. its gone.... forever.

there is a cut line on my neck now.... it feels funny...sort of like someone just slit your throat...
but i am getting use to it. it feel funny when i eat and drink....something is missing....

i am glad that it was detected early and removed...otherwise, it could have been cancerous in time to come.

funny how all this tumor pops up on our body that you never notice... scary isn't it?

maybe its really time that we be more responsible with how we treat our environment, our animals and our food. its revenge of mother earth!

having said all that, there is really something i learn from this episode. its really a wake up call. everything is in God's time. he can give you freely and he can take it away swiftly. we have to constantly stay alert and listen to God. Be ready for his coming for he will come at a time you least expected.

and then i thought...

i am a lector in the church. for those who does not know what a lector is in the Roman Catholic faith, a lector is someone who proclaim the Word of the Lord during Mass. Its a very important ministry. I did not feel I am up to it and it scared the shit of of me everytime I go up to the altar to proclaim! I hate that feeling...even when I have been doing it for 15 years! i have been telling the wife the past few months how i wanted to step down from the lector's ministry... cos I cannot do it anymore!

when i found out that there is a tumor in my thyroid and that if i go ahead with the operation, i may lose my voice.... and i was like....GOD!!!! i may never speak again!!

I realise that maybe God still wants me to serve in the ministry but because of my selfish reason... i wanted out!

many things went through my mind the few days when i was told of the tumor.... finding reasons and meaning in this episode. i prayed.... for myself to have the strength to go on...even without the voice. something hit me at one point. I told the wife that IF i don't lose my voice after the op... i will continue to serve in the lector's ministry faithfully... even if it scare the shit out of me every time i proclaim... and that is the promised i gave to the Lord.

the day of the op was at hand... i prayed... and then before i knew it... the doc was waking me up from the op and asking if I was ok.... and i replied to her... "i am ok" in my original voice!

i thank God... and went back to sleep...cos i was still feeling drowsy....

the wife came into my bed later and called me.... i remember the first thing i told her was... "I can proclaim" and then i went back to sleep.

its a lesson learnt for me..... everything is in God time. We don't dictate of what we want and don't want to do, God does!

another useless thought.

2010-10-26T21:17:00.003+08:00

Thank you Jesus!!

its being a stressful 3 days for me.

however... i want to thank God for His blessing and His love for me.
Without his constant guidance... i am not too sure if I can take it.

I can feel that he is beside me. HE and my guardian angel sent by God.

Today as i sat in the clinic...i felt so lonely. it was cold. the music was stressful.
the wait was forever.... i pray for God to sent me his angel...to keep me company with this anxious wait....

then..... the doctor came.....

he sat me down.....

and he goes....

'so the report is out..looks like..... you are ok!... its not cancerous'

and i go...'WOW!!'

But i am still going ahead with the operation to remove the lump as it has the potential to be cancerous in time to come.

Thank you Jesus!

happy beagle!

2010-10-26T09:06:00.003+08:00

i just come to realised that my life is very much like the volatile economy of today.
it used to be a 10 year cycle before a major shift in the economy....a recession or some global crisis!
then its 5 years now. yap...every 5 years....something will happen to the economy.

for me...its all began in 1995..... I had slip disc op

in 2000... i have a bad case of gastric that lasted months.....

in 2005... i had some virus infection that i think i am going to die!

2010... this is the major hurdle for me.... again I have a bad case of gastric.... I have to do a endoscopy and a colonalscopy..... and during the examination.... the doc found a lump on my throat..... it could me cancerous!!.... i don't know

now i am not even sure what 2015 will bring for me..... or will i even live to that age......

so...God bless me....

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2010-10-26T08:58:00.003+08:00

"it won't happen to me"

that's what we all take for granted. it will NEVER happened to me.
I fall into this trap even though i constantly remind myself that anything can happen.

you know when you read of news of air plane crashes.... or bus accidents... you would surely always goes.... 'nah...this will not happen to me...these people who died are just unlucky.'

cancer.....

i thought will not happen to me... its other people's illness....
"WRONG"

i am now just hours away from finding out if I have some form of cancer. its really unbearable.
i know in my mind that whatever happens...it is all in God's time and i just have to have faith in Him.

maybe my time is up.... maybe not...

maybe i am the instrument of something in His plan... i don't know.

i leave it in the hands of God now. I just have to be a little strong. everything is already done, i cannot do anymore.

sad beagle.

2010-09-29T10:49:00.003+08:00

2 late nights in a roll..... i am absolutely dead tired!!

work is slowly but surely taking my life away!

The Apostles is still NOT done.... i am soooo slack....
my mum asked me to do some stuff for her.... its her church work..its still NOT done!!!
the youth asked me to help them with some logo design .... it is still NOT done!!!!

I AM SLACK!!!

then this morning, as i was walking to my car going to work....

something hit me...

i realised that if i drop dead at that instant.... nothing matters anymore.
whether my work is completed or not.... live goes on for those still alive...
time will not stop because i am dead... should i be so bother with stupid deadline lines? rude clients.... unreasonable people....bitch!!! and unkind people!

..... i really don't think so....

maybe i should really reassess and re examine my life once again...

i should really stop and smell the flowers by the road....

then again....we are living in a place where slow in NOT and NEVER will be in the dictionary.

oh well.... another ranting session

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2010-09-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

'be a good boss..... not a nice boss....'

wise words.

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2010-09-16T11:05:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really cannot understand why humans are so barbaric...especially politicians and people who can influence people.

they would rather start a war and kill innocent lives than to have lasting peace. and there are idiots who support these people!!! this is becoming a very sad place for humans to live in.

of late...many countries are are exploring the possibilities of living in mars..... well its just gonna be another sad place to live in time to come... maybe in the next 100 years.... ????

i am sure the americans and the russians will dominate..... they will be there first to 'mark' their territories..... and then the others..... and then history will repeat itself in mars.... war and famine will come.... people will die.... terrorist will pollute the place..... industry players will pollute the environment.... and the cycle will go on... and on..... an on..... just that it will be in a different planet...a different galaxy...

well...what can i say... i am dead by then!

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2010-09-16T09:44:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since i write anything on this blog.

life has been extremely busy for me...... and many many unhappy things have happened.
i think my life is sort of upside down now. work stress already killing. in july alone, i have been working non stop.... working pass midnite almost daily..... work is just never done..

then there is one colleague who is just a damm "BI***H"...... words alone cannot describe her work attitude and to think that she is 'somebody' in the office... but the management seems to be tolerating her..... well..... i have a choice..... should i stay or should i go??

in spite of all the unhappiness.... God have been very gracious. his presence in my life helps. knowing that HE is watching over me and my family is comforting. although many think its all bull shit about God and religion.... i think otherwise. i find my peace when i pray to help and ask him to walk with me in such time... when i feel so alone, so isolated, so unhappy and so without peace.... now even more so, i think God plays a very important role in my life..... it makes me stronger to face whatever comes my way....

i start my day thanking God for all that is given to me and thank him just to be alive. and then i ask him to guide me throughout the day. let the holy spirit guide me in my work.... my thoughts and take control of my life. and then of course for my family.

there is still a burden in me now. i may look happy and relax, but this heavy heart is still holding onto something... that i cannot let go. i am not sure what is it..... this burden in me.

i am seriously thinking of quitting my job and look for another job of a different industry totally.....

maybe i can be a cabby..... or a train driver..... something that is like after work... that's it, tomorrow is a new day, the work don't carry forward. it ends when you shift ends. no doubt pay is lesser... but i don't really want to work because of money...

life goes on.....

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2010-08-10T04:17:00.002+08:00

the day becomes night
one two and three,
the short break ends.

the heart is heavy with burden
the heart is anxious with stress
the heart is grey with sadness

the time has come
the work week starts
the clock tick and tock

the brain think work
the body stopped
the spirit freezed

i need to break
i need to be free
i need to choose

soon time comes
soon the time
soon the choice

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2010-08-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

today is national day.....

one day... when i came home from work...i saw a flag hanging outside our common corridor....
i thought.... wah...my mum so supportive!!!!

the next day i ask if she hung the flag...

the answer was no....

then i realised that at the void deck below my block...there was a long roll of flags hanging......
it look good when its is flying freely..... but when its all rolled up around the pipes.....

i though why bother? it looks ugly...and hung without thought....
someone must have said 'MUST DO IT OK!!!" the rest just follow law!

and i really wonder..... why did anyone bother to hang the flag outside my corridor?

is there a tripod some where?

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2010-08-03T02:29:00.002+08:00

iraq screw up...the americans send in the troops and fight a hopeless war!!! risking thousands of lives.... and killing thousands...and not forgetting the lost of innocents lives....

north korea sink a south korean ship...and the only get a very stern warning..... and thats it.... and they want to talk to them...

what about the 46 who die for no apparent reasons?

iran can keep building nuclear weapons.... and what did the americans do....talk!!!! NATO!!! NO ACTION>>>TALK ONLY!!

and how did they bully China? telling them how to trade...how to respect humans lives.... and human rights.....

and this my dear people....is the american foreign policies......

maybe they should talk less now and start getting they acts right......

double standard? triple stnadards? what ever standards...... ah yes... THE AMERICANS STANDARD!!! its either my way or NO BLOODY WAY!!!!

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2010-08-03T02:14:00.002+08:00

i have been so busy at work.... i only see sunrise.... never sunset for the past ....well months.....

if i were to go home at 6pm one day... i know i will get lost in finding my way home!!! exaggerating? i don't think so.....

why do I have to work like that?

in the office i am called the disaster cat...in Chinese ..... 招灾猫 where ever i am....disaster strikes.... like having to work late.... sleepless nights.... stress...and workload that is beyond imagination!!!

ever since I got back from China my colleagues have been working like crazy.... literaaly no day and no nights!!!!

they mentioned that when i was away in China.... it was a peaceful 2 weeks..... no later nights..... they get to go home by 6 plus 7pm when the sky is bright.....

so i am the 招灾猫 and i am beginning to think so too myself!!

goodness... this have to change!!! this sounds like a joke to many..... but i think it is super unhealthy... i have being working continuously for 14 days.... monday thru sundays.... spending something like 18 hours working daily...... and all for????

when I make mistakes i get emails..... when I cannot produce work... i am a slacker...... BUT when i tell them something.... they can ignore me..... but then they are the bosses!!! they can screw up time lines....and we cant.....

life is jut so fair!

i want to move on... its useless fighting a war that even your won people are fighting with you...

hey thats call politics!!! well FCUK it...and its not a fashion label!!!

i don't even get to spend time with the wife..... eating dinner with her...... or just going out with her..... 2 WHOLE FCUKING WEEKS!!!!!! yap in the night when she is sleeping... i am working..... when she is still sleeping in the morning... i am already at work!!!!

I AM STRESS OUT!!!

HEY!!!! i am a dog NOT a cat!!!! i am a jazzybeagle!!!! a dog!!!!

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2010-08-03T02:07:00.002+08:00

the time have come......

it is near at hand.... er...this is not about religion...... or the second coming of Christ

it is time to make decisions... yet again.....
a decision that was put off for a few months.....

is it time to move one and find new pasture?

is it time to move to a more humane working condition environment?

is it time to just move on.... do something really useful... and meaningful....

is it that time already???

as i go about another day fighting another war.... i ponder a little longer...... and i will be making that decision soon.....

perhaps in a month time.... maybe 6 months.... but when an opportunity arise....... i will be gone.

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2010-08-03T02:05:00.002+08:00

some one said...... never retire!!

and night parking goes up 100%.....
and i really wonder how much feedback they have to come to this conclusion.....or was it a lot of complains?

guess what is next?

dear people..... use your vote!... and the 66.6%...... think again

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2010-07-26T08:56:00.004+08:00

How sharp is our tongue?

It can be very sharp and hurting.
what is said is said. but there is a time to heal and to forgive.

truth hurts. and thats when the tongue becomes a double edged sword. yes when truth is spoken, it pierced into the heart. how we deal with truth can be positive and in some cases, negative, and painful.

many a times, when we are in a feat of anger, we say thing that hurts that we do not even know.
but in God, we need to learn to forgive... and i mean real forgiveness..... not just on the lips.

forgetting about it... i doubt its ever possible. but remembering it is not bad if at the back of our minds we are aware and not say hurtful things again.

anger is evil.

anger is pain

anger is a waste of time

anger is stupid

anger is satan in disguise.

Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

2010-07-26T08:49:00.003+08:00

silence is golden..... and so the saying goes...... in our busy lives..... hectic work pace, many times we forget to listen.. listen to the people around us.... listen to our love ones..... and more importantly, listen to what God wants to tell us.

very often we talk and talk and talk..... its 'Me' this and 'Me' that....
yes... we are so engross in our own world and what we want.... we forget to listen to what others want and what others think....

this is something we need to reflect on.....

Ecclesiastes 3:1-7 (A Time for Everything)

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

2010-07-26T08:46:00.001+08:00

1 corinthians 13:7

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. (King James version)

how true!!

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2010-07-25T14:17:00.002+08:00

finally it take these long for millionaires to think that the roads are not safe anymore and something MUST be done to teach people how to drive safely on this tiny island.....

sometimes i really wander why are we paying these people so much when me... a nobody have already thought of it like years ago?

do u need rocket science to see what is happening on the roads? accidents and death on the roads are high..... they put rats on over head bridges..... standing on precarious places..... and so drivers are looking out for them then concentrating on the roads.....

then we have the erp.... sometimes we forget to put in the cash card..... and then.....BANG!!!!

then there are these stupid bus lanes and now..... yog lanes!!!...er.... there are only so many lanes on the road leh..... one for bus one for yog..then everyone will on the third lane loh....... that means big vehicles ..cars and motorbikes will share the same lane....

that means JAM....and with that means....money gate increase price.....

and why is there NOTHING DONE to motorised bicycles on the roads? these people wear a crash helmet and they think they are legal on the road....

why are there sooo many rules for drivers are they not stressing the drivers.....? imagine remember all these information..the can and cannot rules while driving on our congested roads!...you cannot go into bus lanes at certain times... then there are different types of bus lane.... then u have to watch out for bikes..... trishaws on the road ferry tourist and they peddle like ferrari drivers..... and NOT observing rules!!!

why are they selling big and fast cars when our expressways are only at 90km/h?

why do they allow those malaysians noisy and irritating bike on the roads and on the expressways zipping in and out in early morning and evening rush hours?

why do they let drivers pass so easily? do they really think that 25 lessons is enough to be able to drive on the roads?

do they even know the conditions of the roads??

hmm..... ranting and ranting..... useless

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2010-07-25T14:09:00.004+08:00

i have this new business in mind.... i think i am going to hit it....nail it and become a millionaire in no time!!!

i want to sell boats!!!! luxury yacht!!! i am going to kill the car markets here...... boats are IN!

this thoughts came after the miw give signals that we have to deal with floods and that no engineering feat can ever stop floods!!! and we being surround by waters..... and the amount of contsruction we have on the small puny little islands..... in no time...we will be living IN the waters

knowing sillyporeans...the will flood (no punt intended) the market and search the world for the biggest and bestest boats in the world!!

er..... they will also need docking space for their boats hor..... hmmmm..... now we know why they are into building more docks for these luxury yacht!.... selling sentosa..... and going full steam for this industry.....

hmmmm.... i think its good business sense.....

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2010-07-16T23:31:00.002+08:00

be warn people...
..... the battle line have been drawn... its about time already

the signs are all reading GOOD!!!

people are walking around your area..shaking hands and carrying babies.... making good comments of the future....

the number are looking superbly good too.... double digits!!!! when the rest of the world is struggling with their economy....

the property market is looking hot and healthy...so hot that it will burn and burst....

jobs are good...unemployment rate is down... everyone have work....

expect more increment!!!..... er...not your pay hor...they say now not the time..... BUT fare or fees hike will sure head north..... they did it and have done a good job hiding it from you!
soon...more will follow......

the happy meter is reading at 100%

so get ready people...this is fair warning..... do the right thing and mark it with an X

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2010-07-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

ah wong have being quite on all front since the limper got away.....
so quite he was that you might have thought he have left the 'playground' where millions can be earned!!

then of late ah wong came out to tell people to be aware of people behaving strangely...and also in the family....

hmmm..... maybe he should just shut up and continue hiding in his hole...... hibernate for all we care... and never to be seen again...... we don't need him to tell us how to look after our household when he himself cannot even look after his own back yard... and let a limper ran off.... and then behave like a chicken... and just kept quite waiting for everything to blow over......

yap...1st world living... even more first world pay and 3rd world behaviour!!!

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2010-06-28T16:28:00.003+08:00

Today..the three lions die a horrible death.... prematured..... BUT expected!!!!!

RIP my brave lions......

i await your ressurection in 4 years time.... until then.... my heart aches for you.... now and it will happen again.... and again...and again......

will i get to see you lift it??? in this life time of mine???....

RIP

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2010-05-02T17:26:00.002+08:00

when do we start to grow old? when do we start to loose our innocence?

i mean literally growing old and behave like a older and matured person?
and what makes a matured person thinks he is old enough to be wise and smart?

can we actually start off as a innocent child and as we grow up.... we become aware of whats around us and we start to change..... our innocence taken away by material things in this world?

everyday in the papers...we see how man have become beast! the world have messed up our brains.... all in the name of wealth and power.

yes...the once innocent man... he kills... he rob.... he hurt people around him.... yes they become beast.... killing innocent man, women and children....... and for all his personal gains... he is willing to sacrifice everything.... including mother earth.

why have the become like that? was it the world or is it the nature of man.... greed, power and domination!

i have no answer here....

it is just a thought....just another useless thought of mine

2010-04-09T10:43:00.003+08:00

when you ask a child where did people go when the leave this place...
they will innocently say "with the angel in heaven..."

hell was never an option to them... they always see angels.... always see love.... always happy.
how sweet and assuring....

when you ask an adult.... almost immediately they will say "mostly likely hell.... she is such a nasty person.. no way he/she is going to heaven"

yes we grew up.... we see things differently.... but the question is must we see things so differently?

why cant we be more child like... in thinking and in deeds? this world lacks of love and compassion. too much politics, too much hatred and too much violence.

this also explains all the wars... all the famine.... all the stupid politicians... and the greedy businessmen/women... all all the religious fanatics who have nothing better to do but to wrapped themselves up with explosives!!! and kill innocent lives!!!

Find God...find love.

God bless everyone.... and have a great Easter season.

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2010-03-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

here we go again.... the earth hour thing happen today.... it happens year after year... and i will say this again year after year.....

when don't we just switch off the money gate for the whole day to proof we are environmental friendly? switch it off the whole day..... a week or something!

it will not happen my friends... NEVER....NEVER EVER!!!....its MONEY GATE!!! ka ching!!!

so why talk about saving earth? for show?

another useless thought!

2010-03-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

traffic fines for bus lanes is on the rise... this i read from the paper....

i think what the paper failed to say in the article is that the amount of bus lanes have also increased! the latest... GIVE WAY TO BUS!!

how not to have these bus lane offences not go up? i wonder....

second... i read before sometime back in the papers that bus can have their own initiatives when driving...thus giving them the 'authority' to move out of the bus lanes....

and you can see it everyday.... the will not hesitate to move out of the lane once their way is blocked!!!

so...they can use their initiatives... BUT if we the drivers used our initiavities to drive...we get a bloody fine!!! how nice!

everything here works this way...they can and we cannot!!!

this is how we teach our children too... its in the system already

sigh....

that is another useless thought.

2010-03-16T00:45:00.003+08:00

the wife and me attended a wedding last saturday....

it was more like a gathering of old school mates.... it was laughter and jokes all the way...
remembering old times.... about loosing hairs, growing side ways, hair turning white in every possible location... yes the bear and the nostril hairs!!!

nevertheless... it was fun, just like old times.

then something hit me on sunday..... i don't really know why.

yesterday was meeting of old friends in a happy occasion.... tomorrow we might be meeting old friends in a funeral...

sad as it may sound, but that is the way of live.

the moral of the story? ceased times at hand... never procrastinate, and live life to the fullest, you will never know what might happen next. today we smile tomorrow we weep for old friends.

here's to all my friends! see you all soon yah!! drop a line if you happen to drop by my blog.... or lost contact..... for our next meeting may just be in a wake.

i am a jazzy dog... happy but getting old and getting there....

another useless thought.

2010-03-09T20:16:00.002+08:00

why is it all of a sudden, the miw make lives so difficult for the FTs?

so much restrictions.... from increasing levy, to raised school fees to buying a flat to everything.....
then when u stop to breath and think.....

oohhh.... erection time coming mah..... must be nice to the people loh... otherwise who want to vote them right?

especially when they paper loss so much..... people sure angry angry ones....

but then we are peace loving people.... always forgive and forget..... especially when all these sweet news filter out......

so hor... you think properly when the erections time comes...think with your head...

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2010-03-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

we tag dogs with micro chips....

we tag wild life animals.....

we tag everything and anything..... we want to track

why aren't we humans tag with micro chips?

inhumane? infringement of human rights?

what about the animals??? what about animals rights?

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2010-02-18T19:11:00.003+08:00

2009 seem like it was yesterday....

its already feb 2010.... what have i done for the past 2 months!!!

i really have no idea. time just seem to slip away....

2009 chirstmas came and went

2009 31 dec thankgiving/Mass came and went

i was to make my new year resolution..... but

2010 1 jan came and went... and i did not make any resolution at all
but hey...whats the point of making resolution when i don't even intend to keep them! hahaaa

2010 Chinese New Year.... ya..the cow left and enters the tiger...

tomorrow i am going back to work after almost a week break....

i am thinking very hard of the things that i have achieved in the past 2 months.... and my mind was blank

well... the 1st week of lent is coming..... in fact the 40 days before Good friday starts on Ash Wednesday...yesterday!!!

i hope that after chinese new year, i will have a better grip of my time and really do something useful before chirstmas comes round...and then new year.... and the cycle repeats again!!

have a roaring good year with lots of blessing from God and to good health and joy!!!

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2010-02-18T19:06:00.003+08:00

joke for the year 2010.

we targeted 2010 for our soccer team to make it to the world cup.... we are no where near even the local coffee cup!!!

now we are talking and target 2014 to winter Olympics!!! err..... we don't even have snow here leh... we don't even have a real ice skating ring!!!

please get your priority right!...don't be like some countries....send a man to space and that it!!! what is the point? to be the first in asia??? to show off?? do they even have a space programme?

another useless thought.

2010-02-18T19:00:00.002+08:00

daylight robbery.....

the other day (2nd day of chinese new year), we went to the local kopi tiam (coffee shop) to have a cup of tea... i was shock with the price they charge....just because it was chinese new year!!! 20 cents more per cup!

imagine... a cup of teh O cost one dollar!!! and worst!! it was not even a full cup!!! it was only 3/4 full!!!

i was soooo tempted to reject it and tell them to hell with the drinks and walk away!!! its daylight robbery!! absolutely no necessity to charge the extra!

i am NOT going that shop again and i will tell everyone NOT to go there.... its the coffee shop beside courts at AMK!!!

another ranting....another useless thought.

2010-02-03T12:50:00.003+08:00

silent on all front....

the great investments.... the great escape.... the housing.... the subsidies.... the labour..... the job...

yes.... listen to the pin drop on the carpet flooring ..... its deafening.....

i hope the opposition will drill this and get an answer out of them miw......

and my thoughts..... it will amount to nothing in the end... it will be even more silent.... you will be able to hear the thin thread fall on the carpet when the time comes.

toothless.....

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2010-02-03T12:36:00.002+08:00

is it not strange that the miw are like so concern about the citizens all of a sudden.... suddenly...we must be ONE.... macham like the campaign used in the country up north.... ONE M*******....

all of a sudden LOVEEEEEEE is in the air...... there are lots of concern and action. suddenly we are treasure... not grass.... we are important... more important that FTs and we come FIRST! not in the middle and certainly not last.....

oh yes.... i am feeling like a million dollars now...even though i don't have a million bucks!!!

FT seems like a dirty word now.... housing for us becomes number one priority and FTs must now wait behind the queue.... PLUS there is a quota!!

now we are told to vote wisely otherwise we are dumb dumb...hmm.... makes sense? how can dumb people make wise decision???? .... don't becasue of no hdb then anyhow vote for others....
they tell you dont worry sure got house for you.....

brakes are applied on the property front too.... and its drill into our young people's minds.....IT IS AFFORDBALE STUPID!!!! er.... PEOPLE......

is the miw finally listening to the people or is it erection is round the corner? cos cannot use the same candy to tempt the people any more... wat ever the upgrading..... maybe more ang pows will..... but then again...after the erection.... they can take it back...DOUBLE......

oh no...... i dont want...

so people.... use it wisely.....

another useless thought.....

2010-01-18T10:52:00.003+08:00

how dirty and how low can politics be?

well it can be ultra dirty and ultra low..... they can be scums of the earth!!! cockroaches.....

by now everyone must know about the allah issue in the country up north... i really have nothing against or for it... to me its mere a political game and crazy fanatics trying to create violence and incite hatred in the world... i think an ordinary citizen.... a man of faith will not go through lengths to dispute and create violence over a word.....

so politics.... its not about religion

the government on hearing the court approval of using the word allah for the Christians churches... apply for an 'appeal' to stop the court order.... he went on to say ONLY ONE CHURCH WAS BURNT..... the rest are 'minor aberration'.....

so how low and how dirty....

i think it is obvious the government have no idea which way this court order will swing.... either the people will keep quite about it... and let it be.... OR violence......

so depending which way it swings.... the government wins!

the government will be seen as on the malay people side if violence erupts.... and thus they win the people heart to stay in power... the fact that they opposed the court decision.....

if there is no violence.... good...they can retract the appeal and the government wins again...cos it will be seen by all around the world that they are a good government.... magnanimous....

so now the position is that the situation is just a 'minor aberration'...essentially...its NO BIG DEAL.... they are taking a 'wait and see' approach.... they can swing either way....

i just wonder at time...what is the christians starts to retaliate... and burn their mosque? burn one and the other minor one..... how will the government react? i bet they will come down so hard on the christians... they will NOT be able to set foot in the land..... they will be persecuted... i think even if u just scratch the door... its a deadly crime!

this is how it is...its about staying in power.... who cares if people die.... properties destroyed.....

i dont know man.... its not up to me... i a just a dog.... lazing around and having another useless thought.....

2010-01-15T15:59:00.002+08:00

we have shift base camp to another location... security was not as tight, but we are working on it to make sure enemies don't penetrate in so easily.

for us, this is just a temp base, we will be moving again in about 365 days.... to a secret location.

back to our new base.... there is a lapse... the enemy have been squatting in the loo...oops the ammo dump for many days.... it was hard to locate it. everything is new to us, and the radar don't seem to be working.... there are still glitches here and there. the IT guy is workig hard to rectify all these technical problems.

last nite, as i was working on the computer on a top secret... i heard the enemy loud and clear.... from the loo... i mean the ammo dump..... he must be spying on my project that can potentially wipe out their entire battalion in one press of a button... they must be shitting behind their tails knowing this!!!

and so i open the door and switch on the light and wore my radar to scan the area for enemy.... all i hear was that irritating sound... but no enemy in sight.... but the sound just came on..and on..... it was loud..and i thought to myself... this must be one huge ass enemy!!

then i realise that its time that i activate the weapons department to bring in two chemical weapons of mass destruction..... its kill without smell... odourless.....

as i prepare to launch an assault.... i scan the place again.... still no sight of it.....

then i decided its time i launch the weapons.... and piiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssssssssssssss......

it did not come out behind the toilet bowl... oops...sorry i mean the neutraliser.... a flushing system we use to get rid of enemies.....

i decided to introduce a third element... water to spray the hell out of that bugger.... i mean spy!!!

5 seconds later.... he ran out of his hiding place..... its was black.... and 5cm long!!!! i spray again... and again it hid behind the pipes and even when i continue to spray chemicals and even water it refused to come out and surrender...

i was on wits end..... what else can i do???

i decided to give it one last spray and close the door hoping that it will suffocate...and die.....

sigh... my commander is out of town..training in japan with the latest technology in chemical warfare..... i have no choice but to leave it as it is and let that sucker live!!!

i sprayed...clsoe the door and off the lights and hope for the best......

i off my computer as it was not safe to work on my project anymore...cos the spy is around.....

i went to bed.... this morning, when i woke up..... the bloody black lizard was dead.... i mean the enemy was dead... motionless.... i can almost feel myself smiling from ear to ear!!!!

wooohooooo.... enemy down!!! YES!!!!! the bloody lizard is DEAD!!! i can finally shit in peace.... i mean place my amoo in the dumper in peace!

anther useless thought.

2010-01-14T16:34:00.002+08:00

100,000 people die is an earthquake!!!

say a pray for these people.... and God bless those who have parish in this disaster...
and we pray for wise leadership to help those affected. and we pray for the survivors... that they will have the strength and courage to weather this disaster.

amen.

2010-01-14T16:23:00.002+08:00

2 weeks whizzed past 2010..... goodness.... and i don't even know what i have done the past 2 weeks except rushing......

new year resolution?..... heh... i dont even have time to take note of the end of 2009!! it was like....... BOOMZ....and it was done and in came 2010.... and BOOMZ.... it past 2 weeks!!!

yap...and BOOMZ..... 4 new gantry is coming up to greet the year of the tiger.... maybe its an effective trap to catch yourself a tiger!!!

i dont know man... the year of the tiger is full of traps and fraud with dangers.....

opc can drive whole day on saturday.... that will cause jam...and that an excuse to build more gantry..... crude oil is going up and down... but strangely.... petrol and electricity bill keeps going up and never comes down.... even when crude oil is down...... or up 10 cents and reduce 3 cents kind of thing..... public housing is sky rocketing literally..... both the price of flats and the physically height of it is going up. now flats are build at least 30 - 40 stories high... property tax is going up..... and then you get to learn new word... like market subsidy...... not subsidy.... we lost huge amount of tax payers money... and everyone is keeping silent..... ir is coming... last but not least... and the most dangerous..... expect pay to increase...... and mind you its not your pay that is going up... its the miw... cos we need to get good people to run this place so that they can suck all you blood dry dry......

so with that...... and the tiger on the prowl...be careful... stay alert... you never know what will hit you.... in the pocket where it hurts most.....

another useless thought

2010-01-13T14:13:00.003+08:00

what happens when you knock down some diplomat..and he lay unconcious.... (this is a reverse scenario)

will the miw let the law takes it course? would they even allow you to leave the country? you would have been arrested and found guilty until proven innocent! do you let the law takes it course because he is a diplomat? what happen to standing up for your country men/women who voted these people to government?

he says he is not coming back... so there is really nothing we can do ... is that so? we have elected a bunch of weaklings who cannot do anything except to let the law takes its course.... and let bow down to these foreign powers...... yes the same as the one who got away..... nothing can be done...... its what they say counts..... electricity price increase..and nothing can be done..... millions of dollars lost and nothing can be done...worst... its just silent about it...... price of houses sky rocket and the miw is 'caught off guide'..... yes... bully us.... and not the foreign power.... we are weaklings..... no guts to use our vote wisely.....

nothing can be done because he is a diplomat? even taking away a life? what happens if this life is someone of status and wealth?

i dont know.... in this land..of money and status..... if you have none of it..... you are as good as being dead...oh well... election is coming..... so......

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2010-01-11T21:28:00.002+08:00

get ready for more money gates and increase in these gate tolls.....

with the relax rules for opc on week ends.... expect more jams..... and ladies and gents.... with jams the next thing that can happen is ....*drum roll long long....*

yes increase in erp rates!!! period.

those who drives a opc... don't grumble if the rates goes up... you asked for it!

another useless thought

2010-01-11T21:14:00.002+08:00

i was in the carpark the other day... i parked my car and was walking toward my house..... then from out of no where i heard a loud horn..... i turn and saw this young man..... driving his black mazada..... honking at an old man

i saw this old man a while ado... he was short and he cannot even lift his head while walking. He was walking with an umbrella as a support.... and he was crossing the exit road of my carpark. it was just a one lane exit.

just when i turn... i saw this young man giving that smug look..... at the old man.....

i was like WTF are you doing!!!! he is an old man.... let him cross.... why honk him? because you are driving a cheapo black mazada? because you are young? or because you want to show off to your boyfriend sitting beside you? yes... your boyfriend... you bloody idoit!!!! honking at a weak, slow walking old man.... trying his best to cross the road..... shame on you.....

dont forget young man... one day you will also grow old.... and i sure hope some lousy young punk ass will use their bloody AIR HORN to honk the hell out of you!!!!

loser!!!

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2010-01-11T20:51:00.003+08:00

i dont really want to talk about sensitive religious stuff...especially those who spark violence and kill.... but i am so sad about this whole issue....

one word "allah" can spark such senseless arson.... burning of Churches and protest and with the support of the government!!!! do they really have to retort to this? can't they have a sit down session where they can all talk like civilised people?

the fact that the government allows demostration is amounting to condoning such sensless behaviour.... yes... they are government.... they are suppose to look into the welfare of ALL... not just muslim... not just the chinese.... or just the indians.... its EVERYONE.....

is this what islam is all all about? zero tolerance? zero negotiation..... one wrong word... one wrong action.... and violence follows...? is this what they want to show the world?

this is really a sad day.. not just for the muslims... but also for all the religion..... the entire human race. they are killing innocent people... yes women and children.... ordinary men and women who only wants to live in peace.... and live in harmony....

can you blame the fanatics for all the violence around the world then? hardly anyone makes a comment on these senseless killings and bombings.... they just let it go... no see...no question asked....

so do the Christians retaliate now? cos someone burn their Church... it is after all the house of God... and if they do... then what? and then it goes round and round... you burn my Church... i burn you mosque..... is that what we all want?

the leaders of the world are doing NOTHING to help... much like the much hyped up climate summit at hoplesshagen..... its hopeless and a lost cause. the fact is... "to each his own", better you die than me mentality......

sigh...... senseless..... what a way to start 2010.... its already getting harder....

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2009-12-24T12:46:00.002+08:00

of late there are lots of bad press of budget airlines.

flights were delayed and no explanation were given..... lots of people are complaining about it.... the airlines are having bad press.....

so what is happening now?

the budget airline is still flying.... people are still flying in it.

so complain what? we all know what can happen with these budget airlines.... rude staff.... rude cabin crew and rude pilot...and best of all we get silent treatment from them.

and the best best best part is that passengers are still taking them....

why don't we all just stop taking budget airlines? its not that cheap anyway.... and nothing can compensate time.... and be left stranded with no clue as to what is happening and when its gonna take off....

the budget airlines knows the weakness of passenger... dangle a cheap carrot and the whole load of people will rush to buy them!!

well...what can i say? cheapsteak? you pay for what you get....don't ask even for basic service... yap..the service is also budget

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2009-12-22T11:50:00.002+08:00

i was in my deep thoughts yesterday..... or maybe i was just sleeping.... and day dreaming..... cos it has being a roller coaster ride for me this past few weeks.... i am dead tired.

this question pops into my useless brains....

why is it that NO one government ever stand up to ask about another corrupt governments?

i was reading this blog about this country up north of mine.... corruption is rampant, even the pm character is in question. millions and millions of dollars goes missing... and yet NO one raise questions about them. yes the opposition are raising it, but there are no international community to raise their voice to rid corruption.... and he continue to rule.... and he is talking more and more rubbish as his politically days whisk by...... he does not even want to answers questions about his doggy character and a mistress...... and simply side step it and manupilate his power in the courts and the police forces..... but there is nothing i can do or even care..... its just a silly question that pops into my head

then it hits me..... and this is my conclusion.... sad but i think it could be true.... simply......

the other government are corrupt too..... if the point one finger at others being corrupt....3 other fingers will be pointing back at themselves......

sigh...so sad... politics are dirty! cheap! corrupt! self righteous! evil! deadly! with no principles!!! period.

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2009-12-19T10:43:00.002+08:00

and so copenhagen ended....

what have it achieved?

a deal? a real deal? or was it really a farce deal??? a politically statement???

maybe everyone is thinking about mars and the moon already.... hey... if earth dies....we can all go to mars or to the moon.... there is water there and we can survive there!!!

yes.. i think this is what everyone is thinking. for these old politicians... there is really no rush, tehy are gonna die before global warming really hits earth.... so its not a big deal to them... they can make any political statement they want.... hell they are not going to do anything significant in this summit.....

obama said a deal is clinched.... unprecedented.....but under what circumstances? they have to give an answer to the world.... the summit is drawing to a close.... and a politically correct answer must be given. he also say a binding deal is hard to forge in a short time... in another words... IT A NO DEAL!!!!

yes money were pledge to third world to embrace new and clean technology..... but where will the real money go to? corruption is rampant in third world... and the money pledge is peanuts compared to the money used to 'rescue' the world's economy!!! is 50 billion a lot of money to fight global warming?

you do the maths.

yes its all a farce.... an excuse to have a vacation... and excuse to meet old friends and make new ones... its all public relation and politics and of course...MONEY!!!!!

there are really no deal... no conclusive and real steps to take to reduce carbon emission....

so world.... good luck.... especially to the younger generation...... you have many many more years ahead and your children's children.....

earth is dying and YOUR ELECTED leaders are not doing much.....

vote with your head..... and your heart..... when the next election comes... its not about popularity.... not about charisma.... not about being the 1st black, white or gay or lesbian, male and female leaders.... its about making earth a better place to live in for the future generation.

take out that bikini..... and buy more.... and men.... buy more swimming trunks... the skimpier the better.... global warming is here to stay and it will only get worst!

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2009-12-19T10:12:00.003+08:00

how time flies.....

in a couple of day, christmas will be here.... jesus will be born.... the saviour of the world.
then 2010 will arrive.... and the we start thinking about new years resolutions which we never keep!!!

upon reflection..... what have i achieve in the last one year?

my first thought was..... nothing really.... its like another other year....
work, sleep, eat and shit....... and then stress about living in this tiny island i call home..... everything seems to be going up and the only thing that goes down is my money!!!!

as i sat down to silently reflect on it deeper..... i realised .... hey i have done quite a bit!!!

1. i found myself a job with good money in these time of uncertainties

2. i went on my first mission trip to china... and eye opening experience....

3. i have publish a book...ROFL! 500 copies and sold out in less than 3 weeks!

4. i am doing the 31 december thanksgiving mass again... and i thought it will be better than last year

5. i am still working on the apostles (my church bulletin) and i am happy to know that 2 people were brought back to church because of the apostles!!! to me 2 is already a lot!!!

6. i sold my house

7. i open a citi bank saving account

8. i am sending xiao hong (my little red car) to be polished and groomed in time for christmas!!
she will be soooooo happy!!!! she will be red again and not pinkish!!

9. i still love my guardian angel... and always will

last but not least...... the perfect 10

10. i still love God! Thank you for everything in my life.... and i pray that He will continue to watch over me and my family!

i hope i have become wiser over the last year and i just want to thank god for every minute of it. we should be thankful...

live is short, love it. live it.

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2009-12-15T16:11:00.002+08:00

price of flat will continue to rise when the economy is good.... but will remian affordable.....

er.....mr minister... why is it that so many young people are crying father and mother about the prices of new flats har......

is it because it is NOT affordable anymore? i dont't know...... only million dollar miw can calculate what is affordable and what is not...... apparently flats ARE affordable... but its just that the young people are too choosy...... we are suppose to take what comes may.....

well...... erection is coming.... doing your talking in this coming erection....

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2009-12-15T15:52:00.002+08:00

sigh...what can i say about tiger.....

man..he IS a TIGER..... more than 10 mistress!!!! WOWWWWW!!!! how the hell does he do it......
only a tiger man......

well...he is a golfer...... he put his balls in holes..... oops..... no putt... no pun in intended....
anyways, when tiger eats, they never wipe their mouth. they leaves trails.... hints..... of what they ate and did.......

i feel really sorry for his wife and kids...... too bad he is a celebrity, otherwise, this is no big deal...... the most he will have a messy divorce.... and if he is an ordinary man, he would not have manage more than 10 mistress..... its crazy!!!!

tiger tiger....... he is now lost in the woods..... forever buried in the forest of shame....

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2009-12-15T15:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes i do wonder what the thais are doing...

on one hand they profess their undying love, loyalty and respect for their king... at least the politicians say that.....

and on the other hand, they have revolt after revolt, protest after protest.... knowing full well they king is NOT happy.... with each government, they jail and condemm each other for insulting the king and having no respect for the king....

i think their king have spoken... he wants peace.... no more protest or revolt.....

are the politicians listening? they stop the protest for the king's birthday..... as a mark of respect.... i am like ... huh????? will it make the king happy????

..... maybe all of them should be thrown into jail.....

i don't know man.... politicians are one whole lot of funny people.... much like artist.... DAMM ONE KIND!

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2009-12-15T15:26:00.002+08:00

Copenhagen summit is all but a HUGE ASS FARCE where nothing will be achieve...contrary to what many believe that it will help change the global environment....

if any of the politicians are serious about it...do they have to set a deadline of 2012....2015...2020???? should it not be immediate? like NOW...cut the damm carbon emission....

will they fight about who should do what and who should do more? yap.. its another all talk and no action summit..... waste of time, money and resources.... and precious resources....

this useless meeting will burn more paper.... waste more fuel and emits more carbon dioxide only... and nothing else. the politicians walks away happy cos they have a good vacation and good break.... good food...... the world walks away broken and worst.... and nothing is achieve, global warming will continue. the icebergs will melt, animals will continue to suffer..... and becomes extinct. humans will suffer, we will have less food less water and less oxygen and will continue to live is a world more dangerous as before.

i think to many of them... its vacation time.... hey...copenhagen is a nice country.... god to relax and have a good time while on the side..they pretend to talk about changing the world...

ya right... hopenhagen..... hope long long..think hard hard loh...... its hoplesshagain

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2009-11-26T20:58:00.003+08:00

i have been such a slacker.....

have not written to myself.... i mean my blog for the longest of time....... have been so busy with work that i have completely lost it!

i have sleeping only for 3 -4 hours a day and on some days no sleep..... rushing work...personal stuff publishing my own book!... church bulletin.... thanksgiving mass for church.... and then freelance work.... and i am getting to shift house .... mid december.....

yes it pack to the brim! its crazy and a rollercoaster ride for me.... i forgot what my bed feels like!

i have since decided to wind down and give up freelancing and just do one full time job..thats it...
the rest of my time.... family and church work and take care and love myself.

so.... today, my book is finally published!!! yah!!!!! drop by my church and get a copy.. its call ROFL.... Remembering Our Fantastic Lord.....

i am just so happy

31 Dec thanksgiving Mass is also almost complete on my part.....publicity

now to finish my last bit of the freelance work... and then i am done!!

i will update this blog regularly the... that will be 2010 jan

2009-10-21T18:04:00.002+08:00

this morning is a super strange morning for me....

every morning, as i drive to work.... there will be at least one driver or a biker who will totally piss me off..... well its never just one, its always a few of them... thus my journey to work was never really pleasant....

this morning was different...

there seem to be an air of peace.... its like God have forgiven everyone their sins and everyone is so happy and peaceful..... no one was speeding... not the bikers...or the lorries or the huge ass trucks..... everyone keep in their lanes.... no irritating lane switching..... the bikers was also keeping in lane!!!.... just cool driving....

yes peace..... a super nice drive i must say.

well it makes my day.... thank God

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2009-10-20T08:13:00.002+08:00

and the winner..... is.......

yap.... obama got a nobel prize for.....????

what did he do to deserve the prize? oh...did he stop the war in iraq? and seems like he is threatening iran with war.... or did he stop the war in afghanistan? did he create world peace? did he scrape away ALL of US nuclear arsenal? did he also threaten chain with trade taxes?? did he even rescue the US economy and we are not even talking about the world economy that the US have so successfully screwed up!

did he help africa rid it of poverty and diseases? did he help the children who are suffering there with hunger, torture and diseases?

all he did was won the presidency and talk a lot......

so in one prize given away to obama who did really nothing but talk... it managed to dilute 100% whatever prestige that comes along with the prize.....

yes the noble prize from now on means nothing.... it deserve no more respect.

well i think he manage to talk his way to a noble peace prize then....

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2009-10-20T08:04:00.003+08:00

mother earth is at it again....

it hit indonesia... cambodia, vietnam.... and phillipines.... thousands were killed and many more homeless....

the people in these countries have no clean water to drink... no medical facilities.... and not enough food to ear.

lives are disrupted... the people are all suffering....

and what do their government do?

yes international aid came in...and went.... medical supplies and doctors came to help....

and really...what did all these government did all these while?

really they did nothing at all to alleviate their sufferings. they are only interested in their power struggle.... promising everything under the stars if elected... and then......

where did all the money go to?

maybe its corruption? no one really knows and no one really cares... cos its really to each its own.
the mentality is better you die than me.....

and so the poor suffer, the helpless children suffer.....

but do their government care? they are busy with buying weapons... build their wealth and legacy.....

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2009-10-20T07:58:00.002+08:00

love is.....

love is when the wife is not well.... you pray to God that He lift the pain off.... and if it is necessary, let me bear pain and suffering...

but it did not happen and than it hits you.... and it is even more painful that she is still suffering....

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2009-09-29T19:35:00.002+08:00

is it not ironic...

twice the F1 held here.... and each time a cheat and a liar won in this land who pride itself as a corruption free country.....

money talks...

renault should be banned forever.... hamliton should also be banned for a long time....
but then money is king...money talks....

both are let off... and both won in each of the 2 races here....

and what did we do....? nothing....

and to think that ms boomz have to give up her crown...... do i need to say more about double standards?

selective persecution i guess..... what is NOT beneficial will be persecuted what is beneficial in the case of F1... where millions are involved..... well...POP the champagne!!!!! let celebrate their momentous victory..... that make history.....a successful race!!! all hail!!!!

ya right.....

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2009-09-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

i think the people where i stay have some ego problems.....

why do i say that.....?

i was driving down busy road the other day... a lorry zoom pass me at light speed.... narrowing missing my side mirror.... on MY SIDE!!!!

i was like what the hell is is trying to prove on a busy road? that he can go to hell faster then anyone???

then this thought came into my useless thought brain....

yes the people in the land we call sillipore have an ego problem. those who really drive fast and powerful cars... like ferrari... lamborghini.... maserati.... they drive at the slowest possible speed...... and it is NOT that the road is heavy with traffic..... or there is a road congestion......

its just that when they drive too fast...NO ONE can really take good look at their babes... so they have to drive slow..... so that ALL can admire their car and the driver......

and those who drives a pickup... van.... cherry...ultra small cars..... drives like they are driving a ferrari.... they want to show off how 'powerful' their screaming engine cars are! and how loud they can actually rav their 'please don't push me anymore' engine!!

this i think is an ego problem.... yap... the 'haves' and the 'haves not'

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2009-09-13T23:20:00.001+08:00

Do you really believe it when the president of the america say that the economy in US is on the mend...things are picking up and the stimulus package is working.......

wait a minute.... hold that thought......

was it also not the president of united states who say that iraq have weapons of mass destruction?

do they really have it?

food for thought

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2009-09-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

this is sick.....

i was thinking..... do we really need to eat..... then shit it all out in a few hours.... and those who cannot keep it for a few days.....

and then the cycle repeats itself constantly.....

you eat...shit...eat...shit....eat....shit and sleep..... then you wake up...you eat again and shit.....

this is so meaningless.....

do we really need to eat and shit?

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2009-09-08T18:32:00.003+08:00

it was after Mass..... cars were leaving the Church car park.....

this vios was trap between the pillar and a BIG ass SUV behind.....

the lady was struggling to get out cos her car was also blocking another car.... the warden was trying to help her... but she just could not get her car out......

so i was nice...i told her to drive into the porch and reverse, cos there will be more space for her to move her car....

she say her car cannot go in.....

i was like....don't worry.. i will guide you...sure can go in and then reverse out.....

then her passenger (maybe 50plus year old man) wind down the car window and say cannot lah....

i told him can...no problem.....

passenger: young man .... i have been driving for many years... i say cannot means cannot..."

me: *WTF* in silence..... and i walk away before i shout at him!

another warden came along.... asked the lady to get down and let him reverse out for her....

the warden did like what i told the lady.... 2 moves with the steering wheel and the car is OUT.... and she struggle for 15 minutes!!! and still could not get her car out.....

my questions is : if the f###king big mouth/ego/idiotic man have so many years driving experience.... why they hell did he not help his wife/girlfriend/mistress or whatever reverse the car out???

and did he not say it cannot be done??

I don't know how many years of driving experience he have... but i think he SUCKS BIG time with his driving!!! maybe he was banned from driving..... too many demerit points?

a slap on his own face!!! he should ashamed...very ashamed of himself!!!

i tell you... the people that goes to Church!!!!

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2009-09-08T18:12:00.003+08:00

the other day, i was having lunch alone..... though the chickens rice sucks BIG TIME.... nevertheless i was just enjoying the silent moment by myself

a man came along.... in his late 40s or early 50s....

"can i talk to you"...

i asked 'about"

oh...just casual talk...

i was like...uh..... "what is it about....."

the man then continued "just want to share with you about financial planning"

me " er...are you a insurance agent...financial planner or something...."

man "no no no.... just want to share with you about financial planning..."

me " but i just want to have my moment of silence.... dont wish to talk"

man " oh.. you dont have to talk.... i just want to share my knowledge"

me: *sweat*

then he goes on and on..asking me how much i plan to have for retirement.... i just whack a number so that he would go away.... and the he goes on and on..and on... like the ever ready battery rabbit!!!

i think he was piss... cos i was just like telling nonsense..... then he told me he IS a financial planner...a has been in this business for 14 years...docs and businessman come to consult him....

in my mind i was like WTF are you talking about!!!!! do i want to know you are 14 years in the bloody business.... like is it a long time..... cos i work in this line for more than 14 years...and i dont even dare to tell people that i have so much experience..... its like boasting!!!

and so what if doctors consults you??? doctors also come to me for advice to do advertising..... so do business man...... whats the F###king big deal????

and finally i told him... ok..enough.... i wont share anything personal with you.... i just want my quite time.....

you are a bloody insurance agent and you tell me you are not in the begining!!! WTF

he was piss..... and ratter of something... which i dont bother to even listen...

he got up...and walked off.....

to another table and sell his story again......and again....and again.... hoping from table to table

i mean if you are big time like what he said...why sell policies in the kopi tiam???? go to the doctors and big time businessman!!! and honestly...he don't look that smart to me...... sorry..my bad

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2009-09-08T18:02:00.002+08:00

good times are coming ahead.... yeah.... time to spend like the americans...like there is no tomorrow!!! invest..... spend...... borrow!!!!!

WHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.......... the bulls are running.... well.... that's what the bankers and the gurus are saying....

oh...by the way.... the bankers and the gurus also say good times ahead a year ago....

and then the world economy crash...

go figure!

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2009-09-08T17:55:00.002+08:00

'building a more liveable sillypore' ..... that was the CNA headline......

of course they are NOT talking about the welfare and cost of living.... so that we can all live in comfort and a place we can call home..... NOPE......

its making it more expensive to live in!

in fact 7 millions was dump into doing it so that it can be a more liveable country!!!

yap....don't be too happy... its not meant for people who are misfits of the society.....who do not earn enough money...... and are not highly educated..... wah lau!!!!

sorry...its a fact...

i am just so lucky to be dying soon..... or should i asy i won't live long enough to see it happening....

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2009-09-08T17:51:00.003+08:00

today... i drove on the F1 race track....

at 3pm in the afternoon, all the lights along the suntec track was on... yap...save the environment.... save GIA???...save whatever....

money talks..... F1 is money spinning event.....

i felt like shummi for a little while..... driving my FERRARI.... red opel down the track...going towards the pitstop!!!!

but i lost the race to the ECP... the lorry was faster than me!!!! infact everyone as faster than me.....

i wanted to feel what its like to be on the track..... i drove slowly

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2009-09-04T18:49:00.002+08:00

i had a rather intelligent conversation with a nun a few weeks back....

we were talking about some third world country.... she was telling me that the people there are so deprive of everything... food, life, education and everything.... it is just miserable living there. there is practically no future there.

women a doom.... much like their political leader who is under house arrest....

they yearn for freedom and democracy and a better live for themselves and their children...and the development of their country.... but the military juanta is merciless.....

what better way to stop revolt by giving your fellow countrymen the bare minimum to survive.... so all day and night, you will be just thinking of the next meal or the next day.... never too far.....

but then the discussion we had and the issues are not about these juanta....

it is about us.... living here.....

we have taken everything here for granted.

see how we adults waste food..... you see how our children waste food.... ordering a lot but throwing away just as much...and worst, parents condone to such actions!!

today's children are rude, obnoxious, shelfish and what not. they place themselves too high... but do we blame the children? or are the parents at fault? to compensate the time not spent with the kids, they use material things and money to offset their guilt..... they just give... and give and no questions asked.

our children today are all ill equip to handle any harsh conditions... we complain at the slightest inconvenience or discomfort. you can see it in the papers.... children are smoking, drinking engaging in pre marital sex.... runner for loan sharks...gamble... fight... form gangs..... sniff glue, take drugs...... and what not.....

they may be too bored with life.... they find them meaningless......

what kind of values and morales are we teaching our future generation?

do we treasure what we have and have achieve for the past 44 years? maybe its high time we start to reflect on ourselves.....

look at the world around us..... the people who are suffering.... it may not be people for the third world..... it could be our neighbours... our friends... and even our families.... there are many less fortunate people in our midst....

learn to appreciate.... smell the flowers.....love peace.... love your life......

most of all love God.....

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2009-09-04T18:47:00.001+08:00

love is....

"you are really a pain in the ass.... i am very angry with you!!!"
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but i still love you as much.....

awww.......

nice

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2009-09-04T08:45:00.002+08:00

being a man was so much easier just a few years back....

today, to be a man it is a whole new experience and complicated... yes complicated!!

many years ago, men can choose to brush or not to brush his teeth... no big deal.... maybe a rinse would have done the job, he puts on his jeans (3 weeks old) and grab the most available Tshit...and thats it...no need to comb hair...no gel needed... put on perfume.... wears his socks ( 2 days old) and his sneakers and that it!!! ... he is off to work

time: 3 mins flat

today....

man wakes up. brush his teeth, floss them.... then there is an array of face wash..... first the normal face wash, the your have the scrub...and then moisturiser, then you shave... making sure no facial hairs are left undone....

then you have a warm shower.... using another arrays of body baths!!!! and then you start to wash your hair..... using shampoo and then conditional...... and when you are washing your hair... you ensure that the water form your head does not flow onto your face...... this will damage your delicate well cleanse skin!!!

then if off to the mirror.... looking at you biceps, triceps and whatever ceps you have to look..... and then you begin to blow dry your hair.... and then you gel it...style it......

and of course if the eye brow is out of place.... you have to use the twiser to put out those that are out of place.....

the more vains ones will put on some foundation.... and maybe sun block..... eye liner.....

then its off to the cabinet where a range of cloths awaits the master.....

good to wear pink today?... or should i wear white.... long sleeves??? my pants..... hmm... jeans? slacks..... straight cut??? tight fit.... belts...... wait!!!! what's my mood today? good...not so happy??? hmmmm..

choices choices and more choices.....

and what bag should i carry to work today...... and the shoes to match it????

time: 90mins and still counting.....

yes... if its not right you don't leave the house! simple as that....

today's men must be metrosexual.... he must be emotionally connected, he must know how to cook.... he must be able to cry... laugh, humorous, be sensitive... loving...

i am so tired typing this.... imagine, a few line from the first paragraph was all it need to describe men... compare to the many many paragraphs and lines......

good luck and ....... which one are you?

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2009-09-03T12:38:00.003+08:00

living here in this tiny state is like living in a pressure cooker....

the moment you are born, thats it!!! pressure cooked! by the time you are 24 hrs old.... you are expected to be smart! yes... if you can go to school after 24 hours... you will be in one!!!

school is another pressure cooker.... you are expected to score straight As...better if you do your PSLE at 6 years old, 'O' Levels at 8, 'A' levels at 10 and complete your PhD by the time you hit the ripe old age of 12!

then you work... you are expected to perform straight away..cos you are a dregree holder..... some multiple degrees some PhDs.....

but what i really want to say is about driving in sillypore!!

those who drives are actually driving in a pressure cooker.... and can explode anytime. Yesterday alone, on one stretch of road.... i saw 2 bad accidents... although no one was dead... it was a bad accident!

i think its high time who ever the authorities that controls traffic and roads do something about other users of the roads other that private cars owners.....

you see, we have bus lanes.... and the bus captains now thinks they are king of the road.... because they have the rights in the bus lane and there are all sorts of fine if cars drive into them at certain hours..... BUT these captains forget that there are time when cars can still use these lanes....

these captains just drive out without looking as if its their right!!! i have encounter these a few times and I have seen these captains drive out of their stops and nearly hitting on coming cars many many times!!!!! and i have seen buses travelling on NON bus lanes causing traffic to hold for them...... BUT they think they have the right.... and the authorities don't think that there is anything wrong......

that is one rule we have to obey

then there are taxis who stop where and when they want....

then we have the motor bikes... who zip in and out of traffic like there are no cars at all on the road....

then we have the pedestrians who thinks that cars have to give way to them.... they take their time to cross even when green man blinking..... or the man turns red and then the zebra crossing..... suddenly all these pedestrian become senior citizens.... and best of all are those who walk casually and talking over the mobile phones ignoring the fact that they are crossing the roads!!!

and of course we have the shummi wannabes on the roads...... the wrx.. the evos... the the fake ferraris (i saw a hunydai i30 with a ferrari logo on it) and the vans that are mod to look like speed demons!!!

and those HUGE trucks!!!! they really believe that they are KING... no one can touch them.... which is true... whoever touches them will be dead under their BIG ASS body!!!

and then we have the money gates, the hiding white ants on the overhead bridges....and what not and the speed traps, speed cameras..... the various speed limit on the same stretch of expressway..... the huge ass amount of laws we have on the road......

all the traffics rules seem to be putting more pressure on the drivers.... they have to look out and remember so many many rules!!!

NOW....

imagine you are driving on the road...... you have to observe so many things and look out for so many things

pressure cooker?

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2009-08-28T19:19:00.003+08:00

these are the types of brains the town council where I stay have.....

i really have NOTHING more to say.... seeing it is believing.....

what is wrong with this picture?

well.... we are suppose to keep the environment clean... and they say we cannot paste notice on the wall.... i think it is an office.... like vandalisim....

and there they are..... pasting it on the wall themselves!!!! what rubbish are they talking about????!!!!

see the sentence below.... TOWARDS A CLEANER AND GREENER ENVIRONMENT!!!

ya right....

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2009-08-28T19:14:00.003+08:00

it is absolutely disgusting!!!

SFX: askjhgiuahrgsjkdbvrebgaeirubgiuer...... PUI!!!!!!

WHY DO MEN NEED TO SPIT INTO THE URINAL WHEN THEY PEE???

even as a man... i cannot understand why men do it.... and they cannot aim to pee into urinal... and they also cannot aim spit into the urinal!!!!

and so their spit is like everywhere... on top of the urinal....on the floor... it is everywhere except in the bloody urinal!!!!

PLEASE...can you guys STOP this disgusting habit!!!

i hope some day some man/men will accidently spit into their own dicky!!!! and then spread the story around so that all men on earth will stop this disgusting act!!

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2009-08-28T19:14:00.000+08:00

last nite....

it came ... i saw.... i spray... i whack... i kill.... and i mop up....

simple routine procedure i did to kill that bloody spy!!!! intrude into our base camp!!!
he was dead even before he knew what hit him!

yes he is a very dead lizard... now 17 floor down in the rubbish dump!

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2009-08-24T16:14:00.002+08:00

this is crazy... i read something really crazy a while ago......

if you are sick and want to sip water or take a sweet to over motion sickness... you must ask permission...... for the mrt authorities..... are they like in every carriage ALL THE TIME??

huh.... why???

are we in school or something? or is this a real police state? harsh rule is an understatement... stupid i should say...

er...want to eat sweet...raise your hands first hor..... want o drink...ask permission ok... if noe ken fine!!!! wah lau!!!! i cannot understand......

i agree that there should be no eating in the train... as in food... burgers... french fries.... wan ton noodles ..... pawn noodles..... pow.... siew mai.... rojak.... pizza... drinking coke...soft drinks.... BUT come on...water and sweets!!!!?!?!??!!! you can ban chewing gum.... but water and sweets... i cannot understand

must it be like that?

if thats the case... want to play hard ball.... fire incompetent miws.... there are plenty around to fire..and to start off... they can do away with the onw who cant sing.... and the one who smok malborotan.... and the table tennis one..... and soooo many more....

how mr minister?

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2009-08-19T16:56:00.003+08:00

the other night, we have drinks with a youth in our Church.... oh... youth... so its just sugar cane drink in the hawker centre and NOT liquor drinks..... or beer.....

he suddenly said, I will be busy and don't know if I will be so involved in Church work any more....

me and the wife shot off immediately... "Yes you will..." without hesitation.....

strange though we spoke in unison....

but its a fact... i have seen many youths... professing their undying faith to God and will never be far... he is not the first and neither will be be the last....

we are all much like peter.... who told jesus that all will forsake him, but he will never forsake Jesus.... but then..... sad to say, he went on to deny Jesus 3 times......

today, everyone is so preoccupied with they busy lives.... there is school.... exams..... work.... and pressure to do well in life and at work....

there is simply no room for God..... how sad.

i want to be a millionaire when i turn 30..... i want to buy a condo, i want to get my dream car.... i want to travel the world... yes the world centers around the 'I'..... and yes... 'I' have no time for God.

but i was young once too.... i understand perfectly well why these things happen... can't blame them....

i left Jesus for more than 10 years before i came back to him and ask for forgiveness.... throughout these 10 years, i have never felt that God have forsaken me.... it was the 'I' that i was so caught up in me..... yes.... I..... but God was never far.... i can hear him calling me home.... come back to him... he wants me to be happy in him.... but i choose to ignore his calling.... 'I' dont want to listen.....

I ignored him completely... maybe it was pride.... maybe its just my attitude and my disappointment of the world and people around me......

I was lucky.... God send his most powerful angel to me and brought me back to his fold....

so for the youth, i truly understand.... but we must all pray for them... and that if they leave, God and our faith in Him will brings these youth who have strayed back to the fold and to be in union with Him again.

i sure hope i am dead wrong in this conversation with the youth.... it isnot a nice feeling to leave God... i have been there, i was never happy in that 10 years.... there were only anger and hate. there is no joy, love and peace.

God Bless our youths.

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2009-08-19T16:34:00.004+08:00

the other day i was reading the catholic news - the singapore version, there was this article about claims that Mary is appearing in Medjugorje....

then a thought suddenly hit me.....

why?

why are catholics so obsess with aparations? don't we all know God is everywhere?

to think that thousands and thousands have been there and claim miracles..... so are all these real? or was it all made up?

i really don't understand why is this so.... maybe God is just not enough for them to feel close to God Himself or to His Son.... or feel that they are anywhere near heaven...

maybe its the affirmation about these 'rituals' that make them feel more secure when dealing with their faith....

didn't jesus say happy are those who believe but did not see....

all these people who have been there, and believed in all the miracles and experience the miracles.... was it all real? or was it their faith that God heal them?? for God pity them.... God loves them....

i also notice.... when the Holy Eucharist is expose...everyone wants to be in front.... the powerful ray of God healing they believed is only at the front... yes they must get it direct..... otherwise, if block by a pillar.... there will be no healing....

but during Mass... where healing is a continual process throughout the Mass... no body wants to be in front, in fact, in my Church, there are many outstanding catholics.... they all stand outside the Church even though there are plenty of seats inside....

to them at this moment... an ordinary Mass... God can heal them... the power shoots through walls and pillars.... they get healed..... BUT is special healing Mass.... the power are not that strong, they must be right in front... DIRECT exposure!

yes, faith is blind. 100% confident 100% believe that God is there for us... we only need to ask and He in His ever loving and forgiving nature will grant us our petitions and prayers.

knock and the door will be open unto you, seek and you will find....

In Matthew 5:8-15
When he entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him asking for help: “Lord, my servant is lying at home paralyzed, in terrible anguish.” Jesus said to him, “I will come and heal him.” But the centurion replied, “Lord, I am not worthy to have you come under my roof. Instead, just say the word and my servant will be healed. For I too am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I say to this one, ‘Go’ and he goes, and to another ‘Come’ and he comes, and to my slave ‘Do this’ and he does it.” When Jesus heard this he was amazed and said to those who followed him, “I tell you the truth, I have not found such faith in anyone in Israel! I tell you, many will come from the east and west to share the banquet with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven, but the sons of the kingdom will be thrown out into the outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.” Then Jesus said to the centurion, “Go; just as you believed, it will be done for you.” And the servant was healed at that hour.

the faith of the centurion is what we must learn..and yes, believe and have faith and it will be done for you.

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2009-08-16T14:18:00.001+08:00

i drove into a petrol station yesterday morning to buy newspaper...

as i was driving out, a lorry drove along beside me as i was leaving the station....

i look at the driver and the lorry... it reads 'tong' brother in chinese....
the window was down and the driver inside had a cigarette in his mouth... i am not sure if he was smoking it...

as it drove pass me to exit the station, i saw that it was carrying esso gas cylinders.... and behind the lorry it read "Dangerous, highly flammable"

and i thought..."SHIT" and he is smoking in the petrol station and driving a highly fammable lorry!!!

a double whammy if it blows!!!

i confirmed that he was smoking when i caught up with him a few meters away, he had a lighted cigs in his hand and buffing away!!!

why???

is the sign at the back of the truck for show?

did the driver know that he is NOT suppose to smoke in a petrol station??

i don't think he knows...until something blow his ASS OFF the lorry!!!

so... mr tong brothers... if you are reading this... please tell your drivers to STOP SMOKING!!! IF he can smoke in the petrol station and smoke in his lorry carry gas cylinders... I AM DEAD SURE... he smokes in the warehouse where you guys store the gas cylinders!!

dont wait till something blows up... and then you tell the papers that you have safety regulation in place and that he is a good guy...a good friend...a good father and all that jazz....

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2009-08-11T09:22:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since a group of people sang me a birthday song... and with a BIG cake!!! maybe i look old.... or maybe its like one celebration to last for a decade!!! they got me 59 candles..... and i am younger than singapore!

birthday celebration is too long for my memory to remember..... and to top it off.... these people who sang for me are like a decade younger than me.....hmmmm.... usually its the older folks who organised birthdays.... or my peers.... friends..... who do all these things.....

its really my first...... ahhaaaaaa, usually the wife is the one who get me a super small cake.... and they she will sing me a birthday song..and thats it!

anyways, it was suppose to be just a gathering... to celebrate national day.... celebrate us selling the house.... celebrate a chance to gather in our house before we sell it..... anything that can be celebrated... except my birthday..... did not tell anyone... but i was totally betrayed by facebook!!!

its kind of embarrassing.... so old already... still getting presents and birthday song.... anyways,
i think we had a good time last night... my wife did the cooking while i did all the cutting.... and cleaning.....

so...thank you guys..and gals..... for everything..... its one that i will be hard for me to forget. i am happy and touch.... thank you all and God Bless...

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2009-08-10T16:08:00.000+08:00

be warned....

there will be more retrenchments.... more hardships.

the last time some minister say there maybe more retrenchments.... 2000 got layed off...

it was mentioned again... a few days ago... so be warned

we are not out of the woods... we are still trapped in a vicious circle of the economy and the political games some people are playing with...

yes those PhDs... those 'gurus' and those 'experts' who think they know everything about world markets are telling you all sorts of stories about the economy...

yap, market index is showing signs of recovery, hey, US unemployment is down... market looks good... crude oil price is up... some banks are showing profits... and hell!!!!! the property market is HOT of late.... people are snapping up properties, there are sign of buying and selling.... people are paying crazy prices for a piece of air.... yes if you get a condo... you are not buying land... but sir up there....

if you have the money, by all means listen to them bark, and follow them up the tree if you want.... BUT if you are living like day to day... and not much spare cash... then i think you get a muffler and cover your ears.... and NOT listen to them bark... otherwise, you will land in hot coffee.... burn your tongues, hands, feet and everywhere!

wooofffff...wooff

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2009-08-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

did bill really have the power to release the 2 hostages in north korea??

the wife just threaten north korea and then the husband...ya ya papaya.... goes there and 'help' secure the release the hostages....

this is what we call politics.... make him look important... when he already lost his standing in the world the day he did it with monica in the oval office...

and the wife....sigh... politics.... can she really forgive the husband? or is it all about politics...power.... and money??

well no one is for sure...

but to me at least...bill move was just PR and politics. he deserve no respect at all.... he cannot and do not have the power to do anything to the koreans when he aws the president...and what can he do now as a disgusting oops..... disgraced civilian??

not sure if mr kim even want to look at him.... maybe the both enjoy smoking cigars... i don't know....

he make a mockery out of the white house and the importance of being one of the most powerful man on earth...

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2009-08-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

happy 44 national day singapore!!!!

i love my country... i will fight for her if someone somewhere thinks we are just a tiny red dot....

but the politics..... and the politicians.... well that's another story.

anyways... its national day.... we should all stand as one united, we have come very very far to what we are today. everyone did a great job making this a great place to say in...

yes even those who sweep the roads, wash the toilets and the old and aged... lets all not forget them.... especially they MIWs!!!

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How sharp is our tongue?

Hebrews 4:12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.